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Human nature-to want what you can't have.

Mon Feb 18, 2008, 6:54 PM

Ok i have this freind... and he's quite a bit older than me... and, ok i know im not the "loving" kind, and im not sure if i love him, but i do care about him. and he's married... and loves someone else... and he knows EVERYTHING about me, and i know all his secrets... and we're so close... like best friends, and im not sure if im mixing that up with love or not... I can't tell him any of this, because im afraid of how he'll react, but if i don't, then i'll never know what was gon happen... if it would've worked or not. I've always told people that if they're married, don't divorce for someone way younger than you, because 1. you make you wife feel like shit 2. you're new gf feels like shit and 3. how often do these things really last, ya know? but it still doesn't change the fact that i want him and i know that he doesn't "love" his wife like he prolly should since they're married and all... idk, why is it human nature to always want what you can't have?

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~EmpressStarXVII Feb 18, 2008, 7:20:08 PM

Oh boy oh boy....I send you a message lol.

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=Roland3791 Feb 19, 2008, 6:13:15 AM

If he is going to leave her on his own, I would say that it would be ok for him to date someone younger, but if he is leaving because of that person, then i would agree, it wouldn't work out for all the reasons you mention. As for telling him about it, why would you be worried about how he would react Jessi. If he cares for you as much as you say, they he will appreciate you telling him about it. As far as for it being love or not, that is something you will have to work out with him.

Take care dear, and I will talk to you about this later.

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~Shrooms57 Feb 19, 2008, 8:16:04 AM

Im tired of getting hurt. If i tell him, im almost certain that he won't be there for me, cuz i don't think he wants me like that... besides he cares for someone else and im 'just a freind'...

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=Roland3791 Feb 19, 2008, 12:59:51 PM

Jessi, friends are hard to find, compared to lovers, at least in my experience. I miss all the good friends that i had that I've let get away from me because of dating someone. I would say that even if he doesn't want more, unless it is totally painful for you, be his friend, and perhaps one day, he will want more, when he realizes how important you are to him too.

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"I will show you fear in a handful of dust"
T.S. Eliot "The Waste Land"

~xpt Feb 19, 2008, 3:18:56 PM

He is married, he has is own life. I think you shouldn’t loose such a good friend only because a feeling that you aren’t sure about. It may be true love or not, but you can always try to stop thinking about that. You’ll feel sad, unhappy, etc. But it will all pass and you’ll still have him as a friend. Like Roland3791 said, “friends are hard to find, compared to lovers”.
Think twice before doing something.

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~Shrooms57 Feb 19, 2008, 4:18:04 PM

Thank you hun i got your note.. but i forgot that it erases it when you look at it and i didn't answer yet and i lost it... but thank you. I also know the feeling because it happend with someone else... but neither one loves me... and never said it either... guess im just not meant for love...

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R.I.P. Steve *You will be remembered*