ok 1. im sorry everyone, i haven't really done anything on DA lately because of work and graduation adn shit and plus the fact that i have a MAJOR writers block right now... there will also be no poems... been having problems lately... with HIM... um not the 34 year old the older one... i love him, i really do and he tells me he's gon leave his wife... he didn't say that he'd do it FOR ME, which i really don't think he will do it for me... but his dad is dying right now, and he's down visitng him and all i cna think about is "omg i want him soooo bad" ya know? i feel like a bitch... he deserves better than her, but im not sure im too much better ya know? what can i give him? i can give him pain, and suffering... i don't want kids right now, and he's never wanted kids... but i know eventually im gon want them... im not even freakin sure he's gon divorce her... gosh... i wish i knew what to do... i care about him a lot.... more than i could ever try to describe...but... idk ya know? does anyone else see my dilemma here? and plus in a year or so im going to move out with Kristee, to either Laughlin, NV or somewhere in Arizona... so im not sure if i should try to get him to go with me, to live with Kristee and leave his wife, or if i should just keep doing what im doing and leave anyway, lettting by gons be by gons... or if i should drop him right now... i sooo don't know what to do, anyone got any ideas?